Hello, Goodbye

It has been four years since I found out about you. Seems as though with my busy life I no longer think of you as often, but my heart is just as burdened as ever when I do. I was so happy four years ago. I spent my time thinking of you and what our life together would be like. I wanted only the best for you, and from the moment I knew about you started to make plans and changes so that I could give it to you. I would have done anything for you. I still long to see you, long to know you.

One of the hardest days of my life was the day I said goodbye. My heart was crushed, and my world falling apart. All the plans and dreams I had had were gone, and I was faced with spending the rest of my life with the knowledge of what I had lost, something that was so precious to me.

I want you to know that despite the passage of time, despite my busy life, despite your three younger siblings, despite it all, that you were longed for, you were wanted, you were loved. Nothing will ever completely take away the pain of loosing you, and nothing will ever make me forget. You were a precious person taken from me too soon, and you will always be in my heart.